[ He'd heard other network posts when Sherlock's body was found. That was more than enough to keep him off from looking after he's come to accept the fact that his best friend was dead and, more than that, died terribly. Chase wavered around the door outside and he heard snippets of her talking from time to time, but that was the extent of John's involvement in whatever gossip was going on.
Sherlock wasn't a nice man - John knows that, would be one of the first to say that he was a proper tit, in fact. There are plenty of people who hate him, would seek to hurt him if they had the chance, or hurt him again. There were people laughing at him somewhere, surely, and people like Edgeworth, who thought Sherlock got what was coming to him after all. And the thought of it brings bile to the back of John's throat, makes him feel gnarled and violent.
But then, there are people who are sincerely mourning his loss. And there are people who want to be kind to him, want to apologize for his loss. And that makes John feel just as sick, in another way, but still something incomprehensible and unwanted. And so he's secluded himself.
Edgeworth essentially promising to not talk about Sherlock is what finally gets him a call. ]
Let's hear it.
[ His tone is level, officious. Not raw or ragged, upset, annoyed. He hasn't cried. He hasn't done anything except sit here, staring at the empty seat across from him, feet bare and scraping slowly in the carpet from time to time. ]
[ Voice, August 15th ] (Ataraxion)
Sherlock wasn't a nice man - John knows that, would be one of the first to say that he was a proper tit, in fact. There are plenty of people who hate him, would seek to hurt him if they had the chance, or hurt him again. There were people laughing at him somewhere, surely, and people like Edgeworth, who thought Sherlock got what was coming to him after all. And the thought of it brings bile to the back of John's throat, makes him feel gnarled and violent.
But then, there are people who are sincerely mourning his loss. And there are people who want to be kind to him, want to apologize for his loss. And that makes John feel just as sick, in another way, but still something incomprehensible and unwanted. And so he's secluded himself.
Edgeworth essentially promising to not talk about Sherlock is what finally gets him a call. ]
Let's hear it.
[ His tone is level, officious. Not raw or ragged, upset, annoyed. He hasn't cried. He hasn't done anything except sit here, staring at the empty seat across from him, feet bare and scraping slowly in the carpet from time to time. ]